To Mama and Papa

Time flies.

Without my awareness, after havent seen mommy and dad for just a few months, one fine day at home, suddenly i saw the sudden grow of dad's grey hair..

Then I realised im a grown up now, and of course, my parents are getting older and older.. Even though mom hardly show any sign of aging physically, but just like dad, she is too, getting older and older..

Somehow a sense of guilt raise up deep in my soul whenever im acting like a child, having mom and dad take care of my life and easing my burden on them and even having them fetch me here and there and sometimes drive me all way long to send me back to college.

They always worried about me and always figuring out a way to make my life easier, keep bugging me just to keep me safe, even though it might sounds absurd sometimes with the words u used when u are becoming anxious worrying my safety, and with the suggestion u came out with. But i know, no matter how unreasonable they might be, those are all another form of affection u have for me.

Thank you mama and papa.

I know crystal clear that im no longer a little girl that is obliged to demand help from the parents, without any sense of thankful, as if it is given for granted.

I know that im the one who suppose to be taking care of them and easing their burden.

But I know that im not doing that. Sometimes im stubborn and childish that i threw a tantrum on mom and dad, but they are always bearing with me. Sometimes when they are asking for my help im reluctant or just lazy to help them, but they will hardly say no to my demand. I always regretted after that and promise to myself that i will not do the same next time but it is often turn up to be failed.

I'm sorry for that im not being a good daughter.

I am actually aware that sometimes im behaving real bad when im running out of patience with the pace u walk, because u are aging and which i was unaware of it, the generation gap perhaps, which makes u not understand my words, with the way u suggested me to handle my stuff, with something u did. I know how bad my behaviours could be during the times, but i just cant control myself.

Once again i'm sorry for that.

Even though i didnt say it out, but i do really appreciate what u have done for me. U did everything u could and afford to do as a parent. There will not be the me now without u. And im happy that sometimes i could make u being proud of me.

I love you. <3

And by now im officially 19, im officially a grown up, and i will be a better daughter who u always deserve it..