First Love is always the best..

I miss my first boyfriend

I miss it when he used to call me just to play me my favourite Canon in D

I miss it when he used to text me just to tell me that he miss me

I miss it when we used to be so sweet

I miss it when he used to care about he way he treated me, afraid that he might not doing the best for me

And i hate myself for dumping him

I was so bad, so bad that I don't even turn and look back when he begged me

I hate myself till now for doing that

Maybe because of that, so I don't deserve a decent guy since then?