i love you

Before leaving home to college, i already realise how good my home is. But when i really did leave to college, i even more realise that my home is really unbeatable good.. Missing my family everyday and always recalling how's the life in home and feel like wanna go home.. That's the feeling of homesick.. But im so lucky to have my family that will always stand by my side to help me and are willing to do anything they can to help me up.. I cant even imagine how's my life will be without their help and advice.. When even just a simple call can soothe my feeling and show me that how lucky im to have them as my family. I LOVE YOU my family!!

LOVE

LOVE... What does it means to you? Well, its a dream, future of somebody, fairy tale for some girls, even a curse for some people.. Whatever it means to most people, it is just a NOTHING for me, at least, for now. I never met someone who can really tell me what love actually is, or show me how can love be so pure and amazing as what i imagine. maybe i will meet someone that will not do the same to me again and show me how much he love me.. All i want is just loyalty and the truth. Where are you my Mr Right? Before i meet you for sure, i will protect myself in my shield.. and waiting for you to lead me out.. Never let myself to be hurted again..

future...future...future...

i got matriks... i will have to go for registeration anyway and stay at there for 1 night maybe and the second day is the day that jpa result coming out. if i got.. YAY!!! i not i will have to appeal.. i wanna do accounting but look... local accounting sucks... that's what people told me. so i have to do law if im going to local university.. future future future... i m sooo lost now!!!

life...future

Life is dull and boring. Doing the same thing everyday at the same time (almost). Gosh!!! But i should enjoy myself. I have working hard for years and now i have months to enjoy the free time. (Never rush for anything or have to remind mysef to do this and that everynight before i sleep) How awesome. And after 2 months, i am rotting and my brain is rusting as well.. I really wanna start my college life now. Getting a new life, knowing new people's and even study new subjects seems kinda interesting to me. But when i think of leaving my home, my room, the air cond, my bed!! and my family, i just....... But u must give up something so that u can get a better thing right? So im going to leave my home and head to the college, well, for my future. I really wanna study oversea..... People always talking about homesick and different in culture, and blah blah blah. But so what? Im just going to study over there and get back to malaysia and maybe move to the country some day. Whenever i think of the street, the uni, the shops, the dorm and the even the bed in my sister's dorm, i just can compare it with malaysia's. The conclusion is, the aussie one is better. Even the dorm has some home sweet home feeling. Well, maybe the housemate did it. Maybe i might get homesick in oversea but who knows i wont if im staying at kl, its far away from my home too.. Living in malaysia for 17 years, its normal that i really want to have the oppotunity to stay in other countries, even just for a few years, right? So, im not that not patrioric, im still a malaysian!! LOL... xoxo

God vs Devil

In the beginning God created heaven and earth. And earth was without form and void.
And God made a circular light in the heavens, and he called it the sun. And the Devil made a smaller light, rectangular in shape, and he called it TV.
And God made springs which came out of the ground, oozing fountains of pure fresh water. And Devil invented fizzy drinks.
And God said, let the Earth bring forth vegetables, and the herb, that the children may grow up healthy. And Devil said, let there be deep fried potatoes.
And the God said, let the waters bring forth fishes, that they may provide sustanence for the children. And Devil arranged the fish be smothered in batter, deep fired, and served with deep fried potaoes.

is there someone i can talk to???

I am totally hurted.. Why are these keep happening on me.. It's not fair!! Is it what i should suffer over and over again?? Why??!! Why can't i meet someone who can really keep their promise or at least won't lie to me.. Why should i suffer all this over and over again.. Worrying, angry, faded up, then its always me who end everything that bothering us.. It seems like i am the one who being mean and cruel, but who knows.. I doubted i still have the ability to start afresh or get everything well again..

friendship

For me, i can b easily influenced by my friends.. their way of talking, thinking. their favourite.. etc.. etc.. so i can see how important friends is in my life..
I have been not meeting my friends for soooo long.. i miss u all sooo much!!! n even started to miss secondary school life that i thought i won't before.. i don't like the school rules, some teachers, many subjects and the responsibilities that once became my burden somehow.. but, friends made the boring school life become more interesting, full of fun and surprises everyday.. whoa.. how amazing friendship is.. i love you my friends!!