is there someone i can talk to???

I am totally hurted.. Why are these keep happening on me.. It's not fair!! Is it what i should suffer over and over again?? Why??!! Why can't i meet someone who can really keep their promise or at least won't lie to me.. Why should i suffer all this over and over again.. Worrying, angry, faded up, then its always me who end everything that bothering us.. It seems like i am the one who being mean and cruel, but who knows.. I doubted i still have the ability to start afresh or get everything well again..

friendship

For me, i can b easily influenced by my friends.. their way of talking, thinking. their favourite.. etc.. etc.. so i can see how important friends is in my life..
I have been not meeting my friends for soooo long.. i miss u all sooo much!!! n even started to miss secondary school life that i thought i won't before.. i don't like the school rules, some teachers, many subjects and the responsibilities that once became my burden somehow.. but, friends made the boring school life become more interesting, full of fun and surprises everyday.. whoa.. how amazing friendship is.. i love you my friends!!

empty...lost

life is really need something special, not so normal at least.. i just realise this when i lost something in my life recently.. just a month ago i can't even imagine how life gonna b if his doesn't exist in my world.. i wonder why things can change so fast in just a month.. the worst thing is i don't even have the feeling that i expect myself to have.. no sadness or grief but lost n empty.. as if that's something that is essential just dissappear in my life.. omg.. what's on earth is going on.. human is such a complicated creature i should say..