empty...lost

life is really need something special, not so normal at least.. i just realise this when i lost something in my life recently.. just a month ago i can't even imagine how life gonna b if his doesn't exist in my world.. i wonder why things can change so fast in just a month.. the worst thing is i don't even have the feeling that i expect myself to have.. no sadness or grief but lost n empty.. as if that's something that is essential just dissappear in my life.. omg.. what's on earth is going on.. human is such a complicated creature i should say..