Can anyone teach me dont be so materialistic and learn to love people with my heart?

I don't like myself being like this..

I am cold-blooded..

我是冷血的。。。

因为我不会爱人。。。

Had a bad dream last night..
I was married to a senior of mine..
But the problem is that i will never had feelings to him!
It was so ridiculous and impossible!
And me myself felt so embarrasing to face him after that dream..
LOL..

what still matters if the world is coming to an end? study? love?

yes!
family will always by my side. my beloved papa and mama.. my beloved sisters..
they are all i have after all..

law and me

Met a senior in facebook today.. He is taking law too.. And he gave me the spirit of a lawyer-to-be should have.. Is someone who wants to take law must desire and very confident to be the best? But he gave me such spirit. And he even asked me to start study and get prepared go uni. OMG.. i feel so guilty for having the thought not to touch any bok for this holiday.. But i don't even sure if i truly want to do law.. How am i gonna study...

lack of something

my life is lack of something.. I need love.. loneliness overwhelm my life..

the end of the world

i have changed. I learned to appreciate things and I..em.. learned to use some communication skills. Living in this world, without communication skills i don't know how to survive. Everyone is so fake! Maybe not everyone but i just saw that even the closest people of mine is, well, maybe i can say its a little faking. People call that fake or a skill. But i see that ugly. But everyone needs and will do it. This world is so ugly and that's why the world will comes to an end and human will soon extinct!