The Problem

There are the times, when i thought about what i want

I love to join activities

I love to meet people other than those familiar faces

I love to enjoy the moment when joining those activities

I enjoy debating

I enjoy organising activities, despite all the problems and unhappiness, but it doesnt matter much

But then I realised, this makes me has almost no friend to talk to when I need one

I committed most of my time to studies, and the others to debate and activities

I have no time to spare for my friends

I dont get to hang out with them, watch movie with them, chit chat with them

and eventually, they started to left me out for some hang outs

im afraid that sooner or later, im no longer considered one of them

and i end up only have friends in debates or activities

but most of the time, i have no friends

im really afraid of that.. the loneliness.. its killing me

and now, im in the midst of... confusion.. which one prevails..