I am scared, I am afraid of him now. Seriously, don't simple get too close with a person you barely know him, even if you already knew him for years. And never send some wrong messages which can make them misunderstand. Because the consequences can be.. ugh.. why am I scaring myself here...
GOD BLESS ME...

I am goin to start all over again if I didn't get my first choice? Or I should accpet second or third or so on choices as well? If I reject the other choices other than the first choice, can I afford to start all over again?

It's really really really good if I get my first choice for degree. But if, IF I doesn't, what should I do? Where should I go?

The choices towards my bright future is driving me crazy...

I want to let the god to decide for me but actually it is almost impossible because the card is in my hand and I am the only one who can decide how to use it.

Once i had a friend who can chat with me for the whole day and we have many things in common and the same point of view.
But somehow there is a wall between us which is unbreakable and I can't go through that wall.
But still I enjoy our chatting and still miss it now.
But now we become the most common friend ever. No more chatting. Which reminds me that human is very weird. we can change in just a second time. Just like what i did. And ruin a few wonderful things.
Hope i can undertstand myself more. What I really want...

why when I force myself to smile but tears rolling down on my cheek?

Smile idoit!

I am going to sleep earlier tonight. And it will be the end of everything. Lets end this unreal dream.Its enough...

I hope it will be a ramp towards a good start... =)

Should I tell? Will I regret for not telling? What should I do...

I am being realistic in such a very stupid way

And maybe bring myself trouble

I don't like this kind of relationship

U often have this kind of crush idiot.

So don't be serious

Don't be so stupid

It will over very soon

pieces of my heart are missing you...

and i don't like it

because it is impossible.

迟早会出事。。。

Can anyone teach me dont be so materialistic and learn to love people with my heart?

I don't like myself being like this..

I am cold-blooded..

我是冷血的。。。

因为我不会爱人。。。

Had a bad dream last night..
I was married to a senior of mine..
But the problem is that i will never had feelings to him!
It was so ridiculous and impossible!
And me myself felt so embarrasing to face him after that dream..
LOL..

what still matters if the world is coming to an end? study? love?

yes!
family will always by my side. my beloved papa and mama.. my beloved sisters..
they are all i have after all..

law and me

Met a senior in facebook today.. He is taking law too.. And he gave me the spirit of a lawyer-to-be should have.. Is someone who wants to take law must desire and very confident to be the best? But he gave me such spirit. And he even asked me to start study and get prepared go uni. OMG.. i feel so guilty for having the thought not to touch any bok for this holiday.. But i don't even sure if i truly want to do law.. How am i gonna study...

lack of something

my life is lack of something.. I need love.. loneliness overwhelm my life..