I believe everything happens for a reason. Eventhough something may looks bad for me now but I still believe it doesn't just happen. Maybe I will see the good side of it soon. If it still be bad to me then its just one of the obstacle that I will meet in my life, to make me stronger. So I am gonna stay positive, be strong. I am going to success and reach for the star. I am determined to do it and nothing will blow the passion away.

Next sunday is going to be the first page of my new personal diary, the second stage of my life, well, third stage to be more accurate. I am gonna relight my flame deep inside me annd fly towards the bright future of my life!

dadddy and mummy, u made a wrong decision. u should change the new tv after FIFA World Cup. Because now your beloved daugther cant watch the new tv but someone who has no right to watch it posses it to watch the god damned stupid world cup. U guys had just bought the new tv for the anonymous and your poor daughter can't even complain about it because he is so called a guest in our house so I should swallow all my complaints! dammit! dammit! dammit! I wanna kick him out of my house! this is my house, that is my parents tv and u are violating my rights! Maybe I am being unreasonable but I have only 2 weeks left at home before I go uni! I cant even enjoy the last 2 weeks with the brand new tv and yet i have to suffer all those damned shouts and yells downstairs!

I am going to look for a decent-and-non-malaysian-and-better-than-malaysia-guy and then get married and migrate! after I graduated.

Getting in Malaysian Matriculation means you are gonna stuck in local uni and god knows how freaking hard it will be to get out of here after you graduated! Just feel that western country's culture is just simply goes better with me. Say me is a Chinese who gooing after western culture blindly! but still I am so proud to be a Chinese! I know chinese culture i speak chinese fluently and i am a chinese! Chinese blood flows in my vein! So u people dont have the right to describe me that way! I am just simply doesnt like them! U people call me a stupid racist! Yeah i am! and proud to be!

I am scared, I am afraid of him now. Seriously, don't simple get too close with a person you barely know him, even if you already knew him for years. And never send some wrong messages which can make them misunderstand. Because the consequences can be.. ugh.. why am I scaring myself here...
GOD BLESS ME...

I am goin to start all over again if I didn't get my first choice? Or I should accpet second or third or so on choices as well? If I reject the other choices other than the first choice, can I afford to start all over again?

It's really really really good if I get my first choice for degree. But if, IF I doesn't, what should I do? Where should I go?

The choices towards my bright future is driving me crazy...