Sorry

I am sorry that I had a crush on you
I am sorry that I am a person who easily had a crush on someone
I am sorry that it is only a crush
I am sorry that I am a failure in steering where my heart goes

Depression

Second test for Family Law?!
Oh please
Thats gonna be a murderer which gonna kill me someday
Should Family Law be something much interesting than Contract Law? Come on, Contract is deadly boring me.. Family Law is not boring at all in principle, it is indeed very much interesting with dramatic cases.. But the problem is our beloved lecturer who creates a hell for us to live in.. LOL and she said its a way to train us to be a prominent lawyers! Perhaps it might works! who knows~

But the main point is, is that second  test is gonna makes any difference?
Look, the thing about Family Law is not how high you can score
Its about whether you can pass it or not
so, if this second test creates a huge margin between our marks, then at the end of the day we might not getting any result betterment, because they've got enough high scoring people?
Thats just simply my fear,just a taboo
sighhhh
now we all have to study all over again, from beginning to the very end!
I thought finally I can rest for a week or two before start preparing to finals
now.. plan officially crashed!

Lets hope that this second chance is gonna do some magic,miracle happens right
lets hope that it make us all high scorers for Family Law!

TO KNOW OR NOT TO KNOW

If you were me, would you choose to know the bad news?
Some people would say, know is better at least i wont be a dumb ass then
Some would say, being ignorant is better than knowing and be disappointed
I was the first one until the day i knew something bad
and till know i'm still doomed by it
I felt intimidated, afraid, creep whenever i was alone with them
I can't face them as I did
I felt very uneasy
The worst thing is that i cant talk to anyone about it
because i promised
please please please
get the feeling out of me
i hate this

My Friend

My bestie in high school, nd now still my best friend, Jay Kie is sick
I knew that she's sick since last weekend
But i knew it was just normal fever,
and i was extremely busy with tests
i didn't cared much about that
then the next time i heard from her was that she was so ill
she was in icu
I felt so bad at that moment
what kind of terrible friend i am
a bestie, who doesnt know that she's so ill
im so bad
i hated myself for not asking much when the time i knew that

and then i went to visit her just now
its good that she can still recognise us,
she wanted to talk to us, tried hard but cant do it
i felt really really sorry for her when i saw her in that condition
i missed the healthy her who will talk about everything with me
ask about my recent condition
showing concern for anything.....

She's such a loving person
she's kind, no evil thoughts
filial to her parents, take care of her lil brothers
such a lovable girl

Dear god, please, please,
let her recover fast and fully
i want my healthy Jay Kie back...

Annoyed

There's this guy who i knew him in a debate tournament,
added me in facebook
and keep on come and chat with me
asked about my background
asked about my information
and that creepy guy asked me out
holy god....
i only responded to him for the sake of UM's reputation and my own reputation
if not there will be rumours saying that UM debaters are 'arrogant dumb asses'
he is so annoying
he is not even my friend
screw him!

一颗漂浮不定的心，就是安定不了。
飘来浮去，寻寻觅觅。。。
却找不到答案。
怎么办。。。

Future???

It seems like the earth is really mad at the greedy humans
It seems like the God is determined to bring us to an end,
or maybe another new world, which is merrier than this current one we have
Are you afraid of death?
Are you afraid of the end of the world?
This seems to be the question in everyone's head when the breaking new of Japan earthquake and tsunami...

Well, I thought.. is there a future awaits for me?
Is there a hope to live for?
Where is my future when everything is so uncertain
It seems to me the earth can be destroyed anytime now
It is so defeating that even Japan, with that achievement in technology can't foresee such a massive devastating disaster...
Is that true that human just can't control our own fate, just can't do anything with our destiny, but to follow the path set for us?
So where is my future?
Where is our earth's future?
How many days more we can live?

I think human maybe just an inferior
No matter how hard we try to twist and change our destiny,
how hard we try to set our own fate
for centuries, human had been trying to invent something to get control of the earth
be the controller of the mother nature,
but still.. once again proven, we can't...

Once again.. when there's nothing can be done,
all we can do is to pray
pray to god to grant us some mercy
pray to god to help our fellow earth-mate...