Crush and Crash

One crush over another, and now I'm crashed.

I dont even know if im feeling the right thing

Everything seems just fake and imaginary

Is the time not here yet or is the way life is?

Brand new life, old draggy lessons

After been MIA from the blog for awhile, really dont feel like starting it with another emo post, but i dont feel like writing until the emo-ness is still haunting me after hours of phone talk and songs repeating... So, lets begin with emo-ness...

It has been 5 weeks after starting the new semester, besides seeing the fresh juniors in the uni, and missing some old faces we used to see in the faculty, still, the lessons that you get to learn everyday in law school wont stop teaching you... Things get very very very draggy and I felt like shouting sometimes, but i didnt, because the result would be.. i dont know.. people thought im mad? or people thought im just stressing myself out, which might be true..

The first lesson: do not tell people everything you think, because when everything that you know or about you is exposed to the people, either it would become a 'secret' that everyone knows, or it would become a bad rumour spreading around, which is definitely do no good for you. Not worth a try. 

Second lesson: always control and control and control your emotions, even in front of your friends. Because friends are never like family who will always forgive and forget. Opps.. maybe not, sometimes even family cant forgive and forget, not to mention friends. You definitely dont wanna pissed your friends out, because at the end of the day, they are the ones that you are going to rely on. No one can survive by being alone in law school.

Third lesson: always think twice and maybe more before you say something, especially in front of your seniors or lecturers. Because law students are taught to interpret words, and you will never know how the meaning is going to be twisted and turned into an ugly way after those 'interpretations'. So, do take into account of that, and make your words as precise and clear and you can, just like the way statutes are preferred to be written in.

Fourth lesson: Kick away the count-how-much-you-might-lose characteristic. This is not specifically for law school, but for all kind of situations. When you think people will give in and dont expect anything in return, do make it expectation applicable to yourselves. Being counting too much, you will stress yourselves out and gone mad when you realised how much you have lost when you do this and that.

Fifth lesson: Have someone whom you can talk to, and trust. Otherwise you will end up becoming a illustrative psyhco who talks to yourselves and expect a voice from no where will de-strss you.

Feel better after listing these lessons out, because when i lose something, and at the mean time i got a harsh lesson for life. =)