is there someone i can talk to???

I am totally hurted.. Why are these keep happening on me.. It's not fair!! Is it what i should suffer over and over again?? Why??!! Why can't i meet someone who can really keep their promise or at least won't lie to me.. Why should i suffer all this over and over again.. Worrying, angry, faded up, then its always me who end everything that bothering us.. It seems like i am the one who being mean and cruel, but who knows.. I doubted i still have the ability to start afresh or get everything well again..